Them Burbs

As I awake in the house
here in the suburbs
on a day where I may rest,
I tend to forget
the beautiful life and events
beyond the house
and beyond the life of suburbanhood.

March Toronto Anime Con 2010

There were either more cosplayers than I expected or I was too focused on the cosplayers. Many of the faces I saw I've seen at other conventions. I suppose TACs target only locals.

Most of the people there sat in groups on the floor, some occasionally danced, and others displayed a free hugs campaign. MTAC was pretty much how other TACs are: small and simple. Other than checking out the dealers room and attending some of the activities they held, there's not much to do.

My friend Jennifer and I ended up walking down the hallway and back again about 6 times looking for something interest to do or to watch. With my sister, Jennifer and I watched a bit of Anime Flash and Win, Lose, or Draw.

I took a lot of pictures, but I didn't notice that many of them were blurry until I got home to load them to my convention collection. (>_<) I need to work on keeping my hands still. I noticed that there were a lot of people with video cameras. It was so hard to avoid them! It's like every move you make gets recorded by someone.

The video-slideshow:


I believe I am not getting better at these video-slideshow things. ("._.) At least the ending's brief.

Conclusion: Small conventions are more fun when people engage in self-made activities.

Saturday~

MTAC, also known as March Toronto Anime Con, is this Saturday. It will be held at the Toronto Metro Convention Centre. I'm bringing a convention newcomer to MTAC, but I'm not sure if it was the right choice of convention for her attendance. MTAC is small and there aren't a lot of people and features to it. It's like a small convention for locals to attend rather than a large convention like Fan Expo for people from everywhere. (._.')

Well, I'll be posting images and a video by Sunday about MTAC.

Wisdom Teeth

( ._.) Wisdom teeth are pretty useless in this day and age. We don't need another 4 large teeth for chewing now, do we? I remember reading somewhere that they are suppose to be used for chewing bones (?).

I've been feeling pain in the back of my jaws since last fall and I thought it may be because of my loose jaws. Then came the days when the pain seemed to concentrate from four places. I figured my wisdom teeth were growing in and consulted my parent. They also figured it was the wisdom teeth's fault for the pain. I didn't remember feeling uncomfortable pain when my other teeth grew in though, so I consulted my dentists when I had my check up today.

The dentists took a few x-rays and showed me images of my beautiful super wisdom teeth. Guess what the teeth were doing? The little buggers were growing the wrong way: all four of them were positioned diagnally and are pushing against my back molar teeth. (That explains the pain.) The dentists hinted that I'm fine right now because I don't have headaches. They recommended a specialist called Dr. Moon and told me to get the teeth pulled out in May.

I hope I won't need to use pain killers when they're out.

Oh my dear

Dear [friend],

I keep blaming you for the intense rotten smell lingering my body: the smell being my own. Everytime you contact me I feel as though you are unconsciously trying to prove your superiority and your intelligence through words. You only contact me when you need help and the help you ask for is, as you should already know, not within my many fields of study. You unconsciously stab me in the mental heart I've built over the years every time you ask for help. Our conversations are interesting too. It's like a competition of who has the worse life.

I only ask for help when I know someone can help. When I asked you for help, I was happy that you did not look away. However, you somehow made my asking for help into a guilt trip.

It is people like you that make me not want to ask for help. People like you make me feel bad about myself for blaming you for my distress. I feel rotten for writing this too, but this post is necessary. Years from now, I will be reading this to myself and will be laughing at my own misery. The misery I thought was caused by you and the misery I may be also causing other people [the same way you did to me]. Of course, you may be feeling guilt too but I just don't know about it [although the tone and speed of your voice at the end of our chats give me a hint]. I know you are suffering somehow so the thought of my suffering often cancels out with yours in my mind.

If only I left to live in a far far away place after that last day of high school. Maybe our relationship would have been more positive. Maybe we both would have been happier that way. That or I may be acting selfish right now because I want to feel happy.

For now, I will keep smiling those smiles I often use with you. The smiles that I continue to wonder if they are real or not. I will keep trying to be friendly and understanding. When I feel like crying again, it will be in a public area [like always] because people's ignorace of my small existance and issues give me courage to be more fake and feel less.

Thank you for being in my life. I assure you that your presence in it has given me many ideas of what to do with it. I will now call you by phone because I am aware of your calling for help 6 hours ago.

Love, J. A. Cheung